An Explanation to Potential Female Partners

An Explanation to Potential Female Partners

Sunday, June 5, 2016

Revised July 10, 2016

Revised July 21, 2016

Revised July 24, 2016

I have received criticism for using the words “I need female companionship”.  This was described to me as potentially damaging to potential female companions, friends and partners.  The concern is that such words we be perceived as inappropriate for a man whose wife of 43 years died of cancer just a little over two months ago.  My wife was everything to me: she was my sex partner, the mother of our son our only child; my best friend, and my biggest fan who vigorously promoting the two skills that I have master so far in my 68 years. My wife taught me a skill that has become a rarity among American men: “How to love a woman.; and how to insure that she KNOWS that she is loved.” Now that I am faced with rebuilding my life at 68, I need a female companion because I live my life to its fullest potential when I have a female companion. What is offensive about that?

I was an outstanding physician who helped a great many people in my 18 years of private practice and the eight years that I worked at the State of Texas largest mental hospital and the only forensic hospital in the state.  I have a perfect record: never been sued or even threatened with a lawsuit, never been disciplined by any hospital or regulatory body.  I have been a passionate photographer since 1969 and have learned how to take beautiful and inspiring images of almost everything.  Through decades of work I have learned the rare skill of taking images “instinctively”; that is, without interference from the thinking analytical brain.  Such a street shooter style has been labeled “shooting from the hip”.

Simply put, I have many skills and can be of help to a potential female companion, especially with medical issues.  I am a good partner and have 43 years to practice and learn the skills of loving and caring for another person, especially women.  My nature is one of a kind and caring person.  I inherited ADHD from my mother and as a result I often have trouble managing time, a common issue for people with this common temperament. The most recent research shows that approximately 9% of the population of the United States also have this “hunter gatherer” temperament.

I have one more skill I would like to master in my remaining years (about 20+ according to demographic statistics), and that is mastering the guitar.  This has been a dream since I was 20.  I have exceptional manual dexterity as determined by aptitude tests taken in the 8^th grade, and confirmed by the best ophthalmic surgeon in the greater Seattle area, who had twice as much surgical experience as the next most experienced surgeon.  This was because he served in a MASH unit in Korea.  I assisted him on a surgery (all ophthalmological surgeries are done through a microscope) as an intern, and afterward he said he was very impressed with my skill and told me he could get me into any Ophthalmological Residency in the country (he was nationally renowned) of my choice. But I had a wife in poor health and a small son, and didn’t feel like I could tolerate three more years of training, so I regrettably turned down the offer.  He told me to let him know if I changed my mind.  We became fast friends and Jan and I attended his wedding.

Having mastered two important skills, medicine and photography, I want to learn something new, playing the guitar, which I have wanted to do since I was 20.  I also am very capable of earning some of the needed funds by repairing old style vacuum tube guitar amps.

I do have some health issues that are aggravating , but none of them should shorten my life span. I can manage these aggravations with medications and avoiding activities that cause exacerbations of these conditions.  In total I have no more minor health problems that the average 68 year old male, and being a retired physician I know the early signs of disease and thus I reduce the chances of a small problem becoming a large one.  I know how to take care of myself and I do.

I wrote this to clarify what my needs are and what I can give back in a multitude of ways.  It is important that potential partners to know “what they are getting into” and they will get in return.

I also want to point out that I am a very flexible person and more than willing to give up habits or activities or habits to make a potential female companion more comfortable.   For example, if a woman reads that I smoke cigars and she is repulsed by cigar smoke, I will give it up in a hot minute.  Any benefit gained by the repulsive habit pales in comparison to having a female partner.

Finally, the issue of sex.  I’ve been accused of just being after sex.  However, I have always lived by the principle that friendship should be well established before sexually activities begin, and then only when my partner is ready.  If the companionship/friendship develops to the point where sex is a natural progression in the relationship, we will discuss the matter before initiating the activity.  I have some concerns about my sexual abilities, due to the fact that due to my wife’s depression she has had no libido since 2002.  While would have engaged in intercourse to meet my needs, the greatest joy in life is to experience my partner having multiple orgasms, sometimes to the point where they are so continues that they become a constant experience.  Seeing your spouse scream with joy while having one continuous orgasm is the most satisfying experience possible, and we achieved this level of sexual delight more often than not.  However, during more brief depressive experiences in the past had taught me that to try to reach orgasm when depressed was just work for her and she never achieved ;orgasm when depressed.  She would have engaged in sex for me after 2002 but since the clitoris has more than twice the number of nerve endings as the head of the penis, to put her to “work” for the sake of an ejaculation was not worth the frustration and I can easily ejaculate by masturbating which I accomplished without her knowledge to prevent her from feeling inadequate which would just exacerbate her depression.

One more aspect of sex that is very powerful in building a sense of trust and stability, and that is the cuddling that takes place after the orgasmic phase.  Even without sex, if one partner is too fatigued or is ill, just cuddling is perhaps the most soothing experience a human can experience.

I have a good income of approximately $5,000/month, and that’s without the amp repair business.  I have two dogs that I adore and take good care of, especially Aussie a mix of Australian Shepard and Border Collie.  He is the most intelligent dog I have ever had contact with, and is extremely athletic.  We play “ball” several times a day which consists of my hitting a tennis ball over the house and his catching it with remarkable athletic maneuvers.  We adopted him as a stray at about one year of age.  When my health declined when he was about four he became my caretaker.  I was amazed by this and asked my wife who has a lifetime of experience with dogs, and she said that highly intelligent dogs well bonded with their human, do occasionally take upon them selves the roll of caretaker.

I have a 63 year old sister with borderline cognitive function.  She cannot take care of herself and so she has lived with us for the last 14 years.  She is very helpful and easy to please.  I have a son, 38y/o who is very dedicated to helping me every way he can.  I have a lot to offer a potential companion/partner and I give more than I take.

Mo

Morris Creedon-McVean

A gentleman and a scholar

12624 Timber Heights Drive

Austin, Texas, 78754

512-508-2586

Plea for Economic Assistance

(Long version)

February 9, 2016

I have thought about how to word this communication for 3 weeks.  Jan and I have given our lives in service of our fellow man and woman kind.  Forty years of medical practice in primary care and not a single mistake that injured a patient.  No lawsuits or even the threat of a lawsuits.  I taught myself psychiatry at the request of my patients with some tutoring from a medical school classmate who was trained in child psychiatry.  I served at the largest State Mental hospital in Texas in Wichita Falls, Texas.  This included, the State’s only forensic unit in Vernon, Texas.  These were institutions of last resort.  The sickest of the sick.  While I worked there I witnessed the systematic destruction of a hospital system that was a model for the nation before George Bush became Governor.  The budget was cut every year even when the State had a surplus.

I suffer from advanced degenerative arthritis of the spine and feet, and migraine headaches and was declared Disabled by a Social Security Judge in 2010.  According to the American Disabilities Act of 1990, this designation caries a compensation of $6,000/mo, but I only received $4500, and that was stopped abruptly and illegally in January of 2013.  We fought this injustice until a few months ago, when our last appeal was denied.  The attorneys representing the Texas Employees Retirement Fund sided with the insurance company that I had paid $70/mo for 8 years.  This insurer no longer had any ties with the state as their contract had been dropped, so it was no loss to the state to demand that the insurer pony up the $4500/mo.  Throughout the illegal forcing me to retire on a disability the State of Texas violated the 1990 Act 8 times.  Attorneys who advertised that they took disability cases told me that there were so many deadlines written into the laws that there was no chance of winning.  In addition, under the pretense of eliminating “nuisance” law suits the state put a limit of $350,000 on punitive damages which made such lawsuits totally “unprofitable” for the attorneys.  Just like the stock market, the system was rigged and the legal system was rigged.  The small guy had no chance to regain loses caused by abuse or negligence by any organization.

This is already too wordy, and so I will get to the point.  WE have appealed to many charitable organizations who claim to help the disabled, and been turned down because “we make too much money”, but they do not consider our expenses.  Three of the four family members are disabled without compensation.  And the caretaker, my wife Jan, has fallen into deep despair watching the two men she cares the most about (myself and my 38 y/o son) deteriorate with inherited diseases  second rate medical care.  She had to choose between my my son and Mentally Retarded ( yes that is not pc, but it describes her level of dysfunction) sister who lives with us.  Our medical expenses, mostly for medications was $27,000 in 2014, and I expect the 2015 total will be about the same.  By the way, I have documentation for everything I have said in this cry for help.

Currently, without donations of funds, we will be unable to buy the expensive medications that enable me to function and I will be bed ridden and a rapid further deterioration will follow.  My sons fate is the most tragic, because in spite of his immense talents he cannot even get an interview because the computerized screening of his résumé detect gaps in his employment due to his rare GI disease. He has lost all hope in having the life he dreamed of.  He was an outstanding student in HS and also at Southwestern University a second tier small liberal arts school of 1400 students.  The science department was strong and he was the dominate student in every class including all of his science classes. The professors had to tell him to not respond to open questions as he would articulate the answers with the supporting data in an eloquent style as soon as the questions were completed, and no other students had a chance to respond.  After his sophomore year he was selected as the recipient of a grant to do research of his choosing.  He was well on his way to a publishable paper and had outside companies interested in acquiring the patent rights for his rapid identification of the oak wilt fungus.  Then disease struck.  Acute abdominal pain and several trips to the ER, was finally diagnosed as retrograde flow of bile into the stomach and the removal of his gallbladder at age 21 (fairly common in Latinos but unheard od in Caucasians).  The pathologist stated it was the most necrotic gallbladder he had ever scene.  But this surgery only stopped the acute trips to the ER and left him with a combination of GERD, delayed gastric emptying and Irritable Bowel Syndrome, lumped into a garbage bag diagnosis of ‘Functional GI Disease”.  No GI specialist would see him once they knew the diagnosis.  Now, 15 years later there has been enough research that there are two drugs in the pipeline that address this issue.

Currently, without donations of funds, we will be unable to buy the expensive medications that enable me to function and I will be bed ridden and a rapid further deterioration will follow.  We have $5,000/mo income and $7000/mo of expenses.  In addition, for those of you unfamiliar with Medicare, during the first of every year there is a “donut whole”, a period where Medicare pays nothing for medication until the out of pocket total reaches $4,700, then Medicare pays 100%.  This takes about 6 months.

I am choosing to request donations in Obama’s style, many small donations instead of a few large ones.  If 20 families or individuals could donate $50/month for at least through June, then our economic woes would be more palatable.

Please understand that we walk out talk.  We use 10% of the Austin average water consumption.  We have never attended a single musical event, movie or other entertainment since we moved to Austin (because my son lives here).  We had no idea of the corruption in the State in which the radical right has complete control of every level of Government once George Bush was elected Governor.  We have already had to declare bankruptcy once due to this vice like grip on the State’s policies and procedures, designed to make this state friendly only to the rich.

So, please let us know one way or another if you are willing to participate in preventing the continuing downward spiral of the economics of our family.  There will be no resentment if you cannot contribute, but we need to know if we need to broaden the range of the people that we send requests to in order to raise the needed funds.  For more detail, see the Long Version.

Jan Creedon-McVean

Morris Creedon-McVean,DO

A gentleman and a scholar, Austin, Texas

12624 Timber Heights

Austin, Texas 78754

The Source of the Greatest Number of Victims of Violence Is in the USA

The Source of the an Unacceptable Number of innocent Victims in The USA Is Drunk Driving

Four Crosses

January 18, 2016

Revised February 02, 2016

If this doesn’t shock you, it should.  Allow me to explain.

Starting in the 60’s when America went car crazy, 50,000 deaths and 150,000 disabled occurred. The reason appears to be the that these deadly “accidents” were caused by drunk driving and now we must add  the distraction of texting and other forms of communication while driving.  50,000 lives is also the number of soldiers lost in the entire Vietnam war.

If you want supporting data for these numbers just Google “innocent deaths by drunk drivers” and you will get a dozen or so hits, that provide factual support for the numbers that I am using in this essay.

Auto safety devices (which the GOP fought against) like air bags and crumple zones, reduced the numb of fatalities to 30,000 by the 90’s.

The math: 50,000 per year in the 60’s 70’s & 80’s = 150,000

30,000 per year in the 90’s 2000 through 2009 and approx. 20,00 in 2010-2016= 80,000 for a grand (not really grand but tragic) total of 230,000.

Please don’t nit pick the numbers.  Every group of responders to these tragic Motor Vehicle Accidents, has a different perception of the number of deaths caused by drunk driving, and this includes the first responders, the EMTs who transport the victims to the hospital, and the surgeons who attempt to save them,

The 30,000/year is in spite of improvement in the time between the accident and transporting the victim to the hospital, and improved techniques by the EMTs and the surgeons.

The 230,000 is more than all the victims of innocent deaths in the same time period, except the Iraq war which is estimated that 250,000 civilians were killed.  Our loss of soldiers was 8,000.  I chose these numbers for the sake of a discussion revealing the negligence of ourselves and our elected officials.  Even if the number of deaths is off by 50%, it is still and unacceptable number.

This is even more despicable because a solution is known.  The French have a tough law: DWI and you go strait to jail for 2 years.  No trial, no appeals.  Result: France has only a handful of fatalities.  The French love their wine and at night everyone has been drinking.  If they drink away from home, they take a taxi or some other alternative to driving.

So why doesn’t our government adopt these tough laws that have been proven to work?  It is my speculation that lawmaking in the USA, at both the Federal and State levels is not done in the conference rooms but at cocktail “parties” where virtually everyone is drunk or has enough alcohol to make them illegal drivers.   Thus if they passed tough laws like the French, they would be some of the first violators that are swiftly

caught and punished by the laws they pass.

The Party in power is opposed to any government action (as they have drifted so far to the right), especially laws that protect people.  Lincoln the man who defined Conservative politics in this country, said: “The purpose  of government it to do for the people what they cannot do for themselves.”  What is best for the people is not even a source of discussion.

The damage to our bodies is not limited to Motor Vehicle Accidents.  As we drive on these freeways at high speed, death is only a couple of seconds away.  This stress causes physiological stress as we are in a “fight or flight” mode.  These stressors from driving, is one more cause of mental illness, especially depression and anxiety.  High blood pressure is also caused by these cumulative stressors.  When people from small towns visit our cities, they avoid the freeways as their common sense tells them that the danger far out weighs the speed of getting to places.  Those of us that commute regularly become numb to the stress of freeway driving.

Shame on us for not pressuring our lawmakers to pass tough laws like the French.  Our Governments, both Federal and State, (especially Texas), have stated policies that are against “more government”

So “My Fellow Americans” (as LBJ used to say) let’s turn of the TV’s, video games and other distractions and get this job done.  30,000 innocent lives per year depend on taking this action.

The fact that we have already lost approximately 230,000 lives, is shameful.

But we can do better.  There seems to be a shift in the effectiveness of the 99% protesting efforts.  There have been several victories, like forcing Shell oil to abandon a plan to develop drilling and pipe lines in the Alaskan wilderness.

Morris Creedon-McVean, DO

A gentleman and a scholar

Austin, Texas

Street Photography Declining Due to Fear and Pranoia

Management

A popular chain of Coffee Shops

Austin,Texas

October 15, 15

I have had enough of the abuse I get from taking images in public places. Many of these images are taken during the daytime and the target image is the REFLECTION of what is lit behind me. The customers and the shop keepers are so ignorant and uneducated that they do not understand that almost nothing INSIDE the store shows on the taken image.  Basically only lights are recognizable; and, people are at most dark shadows totally unidentifiable.

This explanation does not phase the attack on “you can’t take pictures of my store, my customers are  afraid of you and your pictures”.  Even showing them the pictures and explaining the laws governing photography does not mitigate the attack. At least 50% of the complainers will not even look at the images, which is the only “hard” evidence” available. 

The management frequently threaten to call the police and threaten to have me taken to jail for trespassing.  In Texas, trespassing enforcement gives the police power to take an accused offender to jail for 24 hours; and, THEY DO NOT HAVE TO JUSTIFY THE REASON THE PERSON WAS ARRESTED AND THE PERSON IS NOT EVEN ALLOWED A PHONE CALL. A murderer is given the opportunity to make a phone call.  This extreme paranoia about a crippled old man taking photographs that are lawful, has become totally out of hand, and it keeps getting woese.

I am in poor health, and if disappear for 24 hours my loving wife will go through “the tortures of the damned” thinking I am lying dead somewhere.  So, I have no real choice but to leave and abandon the photographic opportunity.  This may seem trivial to most people, but photography is the one remaining “hobby” (which I studied diligently since 1969 while I was a student at UT obtaining a BS in Radio-TV-Film.)  I KNOW THE RULES and abide by them.

In addition, street photography (which is the term applied to the type of photography I do) has a long and noble history.  It is a major source of our knowledge of our past.  For example, Dorthea Lange’s images of  people and places during the Great Depression and Dust Bowl, speak a thousand plus in describing the suffering that Americans endured.   So, there is great value in street photography.  Yes, it is a serious hobby for me and one of the few activities I can still do and enjoy. But it has greater importance.  In the future these image that I capture will describe the situation in our current era of rapid cultural, economic and political change.  My slill level is very high, since I have been an avid student of photography since 1969, and I have a degree in Radio-TV-Film from the University of Texas.

A BS degree in 1971.  So I am not an amateur hack who doesn’t know what he/she is doing.

Even murderers are allowed a phone call!!  .On a daily basis, some one with delusional magic powers, complains to a shop keeper that I am taking pictures of them with nefarious intent. The shop keeper then comes out and gives me the 3rd degree about my behavior. I recently took a photo of a magnificent ancient live oak skillfully integrated with the store deck and building architecture, this occurred at the coffee shop at the corner of Parmer and Mopac. Under the tree was a group of Middle East/Hindus, who came and asked me not to take pictures of them. I explained that I was not taking pictures of them. They were in the shadows and could not be identified from the image, which I showed them. They persisted, and made a vague demand to erase the image. I explained that taking images of people in public places was not unlawful. The issue had been argued before the Supreme Court 4 times. In each instance the court ruled that even without permission, the photographer's right to photograph them was protected by the First Amendment. I said that I was not going to erase a good image of the tree, just to make them comfortable.

 Out came two store employees, who sided with the complainant, stating in a loud voice : "WE HAVE HAD COMPLAINTS FROM THE OTHER STORE.", which implied that I was a known criminal. Pure slander. They said "Are we going to have to call the cops?" I said, “This has gone way too far and I am leaving. I will not waste a police officer's time explaining to you that no crime has been committed. “

The "complaint" at the other store (which occurred several months ago), involved a paranoid schizophrenic (having worked for 8 years at the state mental hospital I can recognize a schizophrenic in 2 minutes.) Same scene as the tree incident. She was sitting in the background of a young couple that I photographed with their permission. She demanded that I destroy the image. I told her I would blur her out of the image, but would not destroy the elegant portraits. She, went ballistic, and in her delusional state "knew" I had some nefarious intent. She cell-phone imaged me and my car, which didn't bother me because that is typical behavior for a paranoid schizophrenic. No doubt she complained to the staff; and, the staff, with no knowledge of the law or psycho pathology,  put me on some black list which they apparently passed on to the staff at the store with the tree. No one spoke to me about the episode; so,my right to face my accuser was ignored. The Starbucks’ staff has no training in law enforcement and has no business monitoring behavior once the customer leaves the store. To make the matter even more disgusting is the fact that I am a regular customer (daily) and am known on a first name basis by most of the staff. I am certain the schizophrenic has not returned. So, I am cutting way back on my public image- making. Corporate abuse of power is ruining this country. Their arrogance and inappropriate  use of power to control people, is disheartening to those of us who were raised and taught that we had civil rights,

One more important point, corporations record the behavior of every square foot of their property (even the bathrooms), and people don't complain about that; but a gimpy old man with a real camera is an easy target to exercise their “False sense of power over my behavior”

In order to make their delusional customers more comfortable.

Please investigate my public record.  If you are going to play “cop”, do it right. You will find a profile of an ideal citizen.  In a high risk profession, medicine, I have never been sued or even been threatened with a law suit.  Never arrested.  Sum total of my “offences” to society: 3 speeding tickets, all for 10 miles over, over 50 years and at least a million miles driven.

“My good Flickr friend, Dave, who lives in a small farming town in southern Minnesota put it “

I have often wondered if you encountered negative reactions from your portrait subjects, Morris. I assumed that sometimes you did. Now I know. I certainly feel bad about the accusations you have faced, and I hope it will not put a damper on your night photography. By the way, you are correct about video cameras constantly recording us, even in the small town where I live. This bothers me much more than having my face show up in a photo somewhere. Dave

 Here are my demands:

1)   Written and signed apologies of all Starbucks personelle who were involved in this fiasco of robbing me of my First Amendment Rights and slandering me in a very ugly way.  By the way, this issue of photographer’s rights vs privacy rights, has been argued before the Supreme Court 4 times. As I stated earlier, in every case it was ruled that the photographer’s rights were protected by the First Amendment : Freedom of Speech.  I have enclosed documents to make this task easier for you.

2)   As a gesture of good faith, one year of gratis coffee and pastry on  a daily basis.

3)   PLEASE do not complicate this by bringing in corporate lawyers who will only do everything they can to obfuscate the issues.  If I receive such  a letter, I will consider it a clear sign of ill will, and I will not read it.

4)   This is really very simple: you made some mistakes, we all make them, both intentional and unintentional.  A mistake can be transformed into a “good” thing if we learn from it.

5)   I am not going to sue you for slander or anything else.

6)   I just want a safe place where I can go .  Starbuck’s WAS that place prior to the events at “the other store”.  I know and am known to the majority of the staff on a first name basis. I have given the store many photographic prints, as one employee, Ellis, expressed interest in what I took pictures of.

7)   I believe that Howard Schultz is a brilliant and caring business man.  I lived in Seattle 1980-2000 and watched Starbucks’ stock rocket upwards. Meanwhile, the New York boys who think they know everything, underestimated Starbucks’ earning EVERY QUARTER FOR 20 YEARS.

8)   I do not believe Howard Schultz would approve of the events in question.  If my demands are not met, I will do whatever it takes to get a copy of this letter in his hands.

9)   “I am sorry.” Still works.  Please do not make this issue more complicated than it needs to be.

Morris Creedon-McVean,DO

A gentleman and a scholar

Austin, Texas

Note: I did not deliver this letter because I do not believe the managers would understand it.  I just gave up another fertile place for image making.  My photographic world keeps shrinking, which is tragic, both for me as an individual, but to society.